The journey to know yourself is one that is important to take, but also can be difficult. In order to know yourself, truly know yourself it requires you to look at all the parts of yourself including the ones that you would rather keep hidden. Everyone of us has parts of ourselves which we like, and try to make prominent. The qualities of ourselves that we see as strengths which we work on and hope people see. But we also have parts that we do our best to minimize and keep hidden. The parts of ourselves that we see as shortcomings or weaknesses.
If we were to have our way these parts of our nature would be kept in the dark and never seen again. The problem is we cannot truly know ourselves without seeing them for what they are, a part of who we are. If we only focus on the parts of ourselves that we like, or think are our strengths we will not live in truth, because part of ourselves remains hidden and in the dark. And it is part of us that God created. It probably needs some work, because these weaknesses can lead us into areas where we can be tempted to sin, but it still is part of who we are and needs to be recognized as such.
“If, for example, I only know my strong, competent self and am never able to embrace my weak or insecure self, I am forced to live a lie. I must pretend that I am strong and competent, not simply that I have strong and competent parts or that under certain circumstances I can be strong and competent. Similarly, if I refuse to face my deceitful self I live an illusion regarding my own integrity. Or if I am unwilling to acknowledge my prideful self, I live an illusion of false modesty.”The Gift of Being Yourself: The Sacred Call to Self-Discovery” by David G. Benner
The Holy Spirit’s job here on earth is lead us to truth. Jesus said “The Holy Spirit is coming. He will lead you into all truth.” John 16:13. That truth is usually seen as the truth about Jesus. Which is a very important role the Holy Spirit has. But the truth He is leading us into is also the truth about ourselves. And if we are unwilling to see those parts of ourselves then we will resist the Holy Spirits job in us because only when we see ourselves as He sees us can we truly live in truth. I wrote in a earlier post how the parts of ourselves that we try to hide keep us from becoming who God wants us to become, and usually keep us trapped in behaviors that we are struggling to be free from.
Unless we are willing to honestly look at all of who we are and allow God to reach into those areas we are trying to avoid
we will never be able to break free of the illusion we have worked to create, and we can never truly know what it means to live in freedom. God is already waiting in those areas we are working so hard to keep locked up, so He won’t be surprised at all by what we find when we decide to open them. The pain of opening them might be difficult, but it is infinitely rewarding and freeing when we can face ourselves for who we are and know we are truly loved and completely accepted for who we are, and exactly as we are.